This little fella stole my heart
This little fella put smile on my face everyday
This little fella makes me laugh
This little fella melt my heart
This little fella i love
This little fella is my daughter Nur Dian Khadeeja….
To be honest im not a big football fan. Tho i know some of the famous players i dont watch football on daily basis. However i do watch the Worldcup.. hehehe.. yupp me big on Brazil.. Okla to be honest honest i sokong Brazil coz of Kaka actually hehhe… But yesterday Brazil disappoint me by losing to the Netherlands.. Adoi ape ni.. Hmm takpela, takde rezeki orang kata… At this moment im watching the match between Argentina and Germany. looks like the Germans might just win but until the game end who knows right?
Oh Kaka… 
Somehow theres more and more news about baby being dump in the garbagela, longkangla and theres some found being burried. It really sadden me as i do not understand how one can go through the hardship of giving birth and then just throw “it” away. Where is the love? You had 9months, you carried it for 9months in your belly yet you dont feel any kind of affection towards “it”. Ive been through the hardship of giving birth and seriously its painfull and im not kidding… It soooo painfull that im not sure i can go thru it again. So how can one just kill their own baby after all the pain that you go thru… You go thru the ppain as youre in love, yes in love with the baby that you decide to let live in your tummy for 9 months. You feed it, you cherish it for 9 months, so how can you kill it less than 9 seconds knowing it.
Look at this. How could you???? You say youre human but this is not human? Animal loves their babies why cant us? We have brain, we can think but yet you kill innocent babies.. if you dont love it at least let it live… Give it to someone who cares…. Seriously im just soo sad by this.
Its been a long time since ive last wrote anything here… Ive been busy with the new love of my life. Yes i have since gave birth to my dearest daughter Nur Dian Khadeeja last April. With her everything changes, every thing i do, has to fit her schedule i.e seeping time and feeding time. Tomorrow will mark her 2nd month into this world, how time flies huh… Currently she has started smling and laughing which is such a joy to look at. At times she even refuse to sleep so that she can “sembang-sembang”, which is so cute… I could just talk to her and she’ll smile or laugh.
I guess now i know the true love.. i cant say how much i love her, as i belieeve its unexpressable but i know i want her to have the best in everything and never want to be apart from her… My precious little one how mum loves u…
Maybe in my next entry ill talk about my journey of becoming a mother…
Today was my weekly visit to the Doctor.. She did some internal exam and guess wat im 1.5cm dialated. Ouchh.. Still the little baby wants to stay inside me as im not in pain ke ape lagi.. Doc is giving another week since my EDD patut nye the 20th pun.. shes giving until 23rd and if not she nak induce.. Sis says jgn induce sbb sakit but i dunnola sbb currently im not having any contractions yet just minor once a while, itu pun kadang sbb me want to do no2 at the toilet.. Hehehhe… I asked both sis masa they all labour, they enter sbb water broke ke atau sbb sakit? Ayong said only during her 3rd pregnancy her water broke so her labour was less painfull while others induced.. Muda lak hmm she cant really remember wat happen as she was so lalok from the gas. All she knows everything was in slow motion…. Hmm i wonder how ill be but yg paling i nk tahu is, i wonder how dearest will be? Fine ke tak? Hes so afraid that he might pass out but i told him tak kisah asalkan he tried to be there.. We have discuss this matter witht the Dr, she says just stay close at my head, insyAllah ok
So since i have another week, this weekend will be spend wisely. For sure i eating food that i cant during confinement and probably will catch a movie or something.. Nak shopping takleh since im huge and baby clothes dah banyak sangat. So might just jalan2 and with dearest at the shopping mall… Bak kata orang “window shopping” huhu
Currently im counting the days… Well tho my EDD is 2 weeks away, i told dearest can this little one come out soon… He was like “kenapa? u tak suka?” no Sayang… more like i cant wait to see this little baby and yes have to admit im tired carrying. Bukan apa, nak gi toilet pun is hard work sekarang.. and i mean it when i say hard work K. Im sure all mothers out there agree . Anyways since im counting down the days, im also trying to eat (sound so tamakkan) anything that i thing i would miss masa my confinement nanti. From burgers to ice-cream whatever i want i makan aje. I know ive put on lots of weight but can u actually blame me 
Finally we have put a deposit for our car. After few test drive and much thought we have decided on a family car that both could enjoy
